Disgust

Today I am absolutely disgusted with myself.

I’ve been back on Twitter… mainly because I’m so addicted to Queer Eye on Netflix I had to tell the world. However, Twitter is pretty much how I get my news nowadays, it used to be newsround but I’m not even sure if that is still on.

So, I’ve been reading about the immigration child separation policy in America right now, I’m sure it has a name that just rolls off the tongue but I don’t know what that is. Even if half of what I have read is true. I am disgusted.

So why am I disgusted with myself and not just Trump and the American government for making this happen. I am disgusted because once again, I read this, shake my head and say how could people let this happen, and then… I get on with my day. I go to work, eat, probably watch Netflix and go to bed. I don’t even lose sleep over this.

Another issue with humanity fails, people are let down and there isn’t a shred of decency left, and myself, like many others have just, essentially ignored it.

I understand, I am 1 person, I am involved in politics or a relevant charity, I live thousands of miles away, I am not an American citizen, essentially there is very little I could actually do on this issue.

But I am disgusted, because I worry that even if all of the above wasn’t true, I am not 100% sure on what I would do. I am scared that I would still sit, sigh and move on. Why do I think this, because it’s pretty much what I do with all issues. Homelessness, immigration, child abuse. I feel like if I give £5 to a charity every now and then I have done my part, I haven’t, I have failed as a human and that disgusts me.

Don’t worry though, being the ordinary selfish human I am, this disgust I am sure will only last as long as the news coverage. I think that makes it worse.